Wednesday, March 28, 2007
yeah i fucked up. i fucked up big.
yeah i fucked up happy?
fucking hell.
Posted at 6:20 AM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
sigh!! big sighs.. its gonna be school days soon.. rarr... study study study, right study buddy? haha oh well..
school. its gonna be quiet. seems nicer also. quieter is better. (:
my blog posts are getting shorter by the way im feeling haha.
oh well pltc. i think i've talked about it already. so detached. gosh the world is turning her back on me. so when the world turns her back on you, you should say "i'll see you later".
ahhhh going to snack abit then sleep. good night
are you happy now?Posted at 7:37 AM
Thursday, March 22, 2007
SCHOOL SUCKS TODAY!!!!!!!!!
anyway met cassie in the morning at assembly. gosh how tall are you?! i hope not taller than me haha.
school sucks. 2 words man. sighh
so much for gonna be better day for me. WHAT THE FUCK!!
shoo go away.
dao kia coming you way.
Posted at 2:21 AM
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
sighh well went to school and reached at 12. hahahah nothing much. wasted alot of time today.
having a hell lota trouble with dnt work. gosh. i need to get things straightened out soon man. damn hard up on me now. cause it just keeps pilling and pilling. some one save me!
Posted at 6:39 AM
Saturday, March 17, 2007
gosh im falling sick already. got headache, back ache, muscle ache, flu and cough. goshhh... played too much haha. anyway, woke up at like. 10 then at 12 haha then went for lunch at 1. damn tired. gotta plan for the next 3 months. about what im going to do for my studies. haha i guess i'll start doing notes on like everything i have to do then when june comes, i can start banging hard on my tys man hahha. bang bang bang. (: okok
going to rest now. seeeeee yaaaaa
Posted at 12:45 AM
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
well haha ytd was fun! went to play lan with the ventures, simon, heng, keith and gavin. we then wanted to watch some movie but then the tickets were not even on sale at the grand cathay haha. so we went to simon's place to play monopoly. gosh i think i make a good investor hahaha. but with capital (: anyway after that i went home and got ready for today.
and as for today. i was on the way to school in the morning while watching my sitcom on my zen then at around bishan. this old man, he came into the train and was watching my video whenever there were hot girls on the screen WTH! so chee koo peiii hahah wah lao eh sick la. my fav show leh kns. then reached school and met don and ken on the road. so went to school. we reached at like 8.50 hahah. then for 12 hours we rotted in the auditorium. the talk was alright la. there was one girl. and andes was like freaking flirting with him la. i gotta tell xinwen man haha. then we were having quite alot of fun haha. one of the instructors aint that bad. (:
hahah okok im going to chat then sleep haha good night!
Posted at 6:50 AM
Friday, March 09, 2007
hello you. how are you today?
and i reply. not so good. not really the way i want my life to turn out to be.
it seems that life has walked out of me. well walked away from me. its been god knows when since i was myself around my friends. and i dont think i can really find that me anytime soon. its been one hellofa ride for me.
like i've said. i have a problem and i cant seem to find a solution. i always never fail to find a logical and suitable situation for everything but this time i have failed and it seems that its all down to 1 major problem. me. i am the main source of problems in my own hectic and false life.
i dont like who i am now. i dont like who i am today. right here. sitting on my chair. and i dont like whatever i have done. i dont like who i am today. i hate who i am today. i want to change. and i want to change for good. God, please tell me where to start?
i can never forget the words from my best of friends. those who stuck through with me. but i cant hold on to you guys forever. some, i love too much to hurt. just to even think of telling them would hurt them and i do not want to hurt and destroy what friendships mean to you guys and i.
im everything im not. and its not natural. i cannot not think of what i was last time and what i am now. all i can say that i dont want to be a think beautiful book with rubbish and nonsense as the content. i dont want to be full of shit anymore. i dont want to be who i am today. i hate who i am. i want to change. i want to. i want to.
life is like that. it walks away from you when youre at your happiest point and when it leaves you. it destroys you slowly from the inside. how i wish some one would pick me up from this living hell of internal conflicts going by, and whizzing past my brain which kills me softly from the inside out.
i need help.
come please im calling.
hurry im falling, im falling.
teach me wrong from right.
say it for me, say it to me.
say it if its worth saving me.
Posted at 7:01 AM
